Isn't it boring that I start my every post with "hey folks" or "hey y'all" so today I thought of starting with mentioning the obvious..don't kill me for this! LOL

So today I had a plan for visiting my dermatologist and going for lunch with ms.x and one of our common friend..apparently that friend bailed out and ms.x started her drama that she can't come alone and she shall come on a condition that I'd have to stay at her place till 7:30 but she didn't care about my daily schedule..like I had so much h.w. and studies on my head...she said that I was breaking a deal..which is true..I lied to her and that story is in my previous posts and as a punishment I'd have to meet her everyday..apparently she meant visit her house..like if I do that every alternate day her family will think I'm weird or something..anyways she was going about how I have to stay longer cause apparently when she came she stayed for 5 hours..I old her frankly that there no such competition and it's not the time that matters.... but the moments...I was like I told her please Ms.x even if I go there my mind will be on coming back and about doing math and boring her with...Like frankly I wanna meet her without pressure and in my best of spirits and I think it completely makes sense..then she got annoyed and said she shall remove the ring...and all that ..then after the skin care appointment..I met them at Krispy Kreme and I was sarcastic and mocking both of them to hell regarding how difficult it is to make a plan like they are both SHALLOW PUSSIES and I literally said this ..

I also discussed about how ms.x was feeling weak and all because of her back pain and cycle and she hadn't eaten also..she said that her blood sugar had dropped and instead of laughing I told her to eat the chocolates that I gave her..like she said I had to go there and feed her or else she won't eat them..as much as I would like to do that I couldn't at that moment and I got annoyed cause my job was to tell her and care for her but if she didn't are for herself there not much I can do I mean we aren't married!! and I live so far away I told het something that would help with her health but girls should honestly get a life and simply think practical sometimes

So I met her and maintained the deal..no making out cause it was with friends ..and change is good..we had a good time...Ms.x got annoyed cause I was taking her case and making her to limits but thats just who I am..I have nothing else to say ..bye guys...

STAY TUNED!

The Logical Indian

❝I was travelling in a train to Goa and was sleeping in the upper berth. There came a group of transgender people and all my friends got a bit nervous and tensed. It is mostly seen in local trains that they behave badly when people refuse to give them money. I didn't want to get into trouble. I pretended to be asleep and one of my friends gave Rs 10 Rs and said it's from all of us.

But my other friend wanted to have some fun and called out to that person loudly saying "one is on the upper berth from whom you didn't ask money." They thought it was funny because I had no money. My money was in the bag which was under the seat. I was cursing my friend for this and that person was laughing as he stood in front of me. I finally managed to give Rs 5 which I found in one of my pockets. The weird thing was, for the first time in my life I didn't feel nervous or afraid of these people. It may be because I had a small conversation while I was searching my pockets.

I just went near the door after that. After around 10 minutes, that person came from the other end of the coach. I was sitting near the door, looking out. I turned around and saw her (the person was dressed like a lady.I'll so call that person "her") and don't know why I replied when she said "hi". I just stood and started the conversation.

I asked " why do you people do this begging in train? Its not even begging. You people demand money."

She answered with a smile, "Most of us are uneducated and we'll never find a job and are abandoned by our family. We don't have a choice."

I got a little curious and so asked:
"Abandoned by family? Do you know who your parents are? "
She: "I know who they are. At least they put me in some Anathashram and were not like others who left their kids on the streets."

Me: "They visit you sometimes?"
She: "No. Only my brother visits sometimes in few lonely places. Most of the times, because he needs some money."

Me: "Why can't you start a business of your own? Guess you make a lot of money here."
She: "No. We all work together. We have to share it among ourselves. Moreover we need to give a large share to one who's in charge of the area."

I was surprised to hear they had a leader too!

Me: "Oh okay. Still you can start some small business like a tea shop or something right?"
She: "Ya guess I can. I never actually thought of that. It might work."

Me: "Hmmm. So how will your life be? I mean, you don't have family and no true friends. So what do you hold onto in your life?"
She: "I don't know about others. I take care of a few children who are like me and so are abandoned by their family and left on the streets. I find my happiness there. They are unaware of why people look at them differently and children of their age are not allowed to play with them. I play with them, take them to movies sometimes. It's all I have in my life."

I was ashamed of myself for being one among this society which shows sympathy for people who are handicapped, who suffer from diseases and even people who comes of a jail for doing horrible things in life but not for these who are left with no other option but to humiliate themselves and suffer for the mistakes of a gene. Society which has forgotten these people exist!! But she's helping these children. No matter what she does, I still found her to be a true human.

While I was thinking, a man passed who sells puri in the train.

She called him and asked for two plates. I told "No thanks. I don't want one."
She replied, " It's ok brother. I know you don't have change. I'll buy one for you."

I didn't say anything but said thanks after I finished eating.

I was about to leave when she told "Thank you. Most of them won't talk to us too."
I said: " I was one of them who didn't talk to you people and from now on, I won't be. "

She smiled and replied: "I am thinking of starting a small tea shop. It's not a bad idea either, but you must promise to be the first customer."
I replied: I'll be the one customer who will also bring my friends convincing them that they will have the best tea of their life. Hope I won't have to lie to them.

She just smiled.

I left a few steps and turned back and went to her and asked "Your number? I'll know when you start your shop right?"

She gave her number and took mine. It's been a month. I received a call yesterday. She asked if I still remember her. I told I am still waiting to bring my friends. She said I am gathering money and she wanted to keep that promise of making the best tea too. She talked for few minutes. I sensed a feeling of happiness in her.
After the call, I was the one who felt happy. I thought I now have one true friend added to my group.

And now,
I am waiting for that call which says "Remember me bro? It's time you bring your friends!!"❞

- Hemanth Poornachandra
(Representational Image)

Okay this is damn annoying...like today started on boring rather annoying note...I cancelled my math tuitions just for this..so this thing mentioned here is A.W.S. (annual world summit). It's a model UN organised by my school and I'm in logistics so I got a text from my colleague....saying that I have to be there for a meet..I kind of knew that there wasn't anything important and AWS has just begun so I rescheduled my classes....and I went there and all I did was sit at other delegates blurt their agendas out and basically talk gibberish to me..which was annoying. Like they had called us to "bond" and I didn't know if to laugh or to cry on it..I went there and just warmed the floor!!

Lol anyways I was supposed to meet Ms.x at Krispy Kreme but this meeting prevented me from doing that..they just wanted us to be there for no reason whatsoever! Like isn't it annoying when people just take you for granted and believe that you can do anything for them anyway this is kind of daily. I know almost one person takes you for granted and pisses you off to no end ..Why don't people just imagine themselves in your shoes..like it's annoying.

Also I wanted to tell you guys about something that I have been thinking about the fact that people prefer to stay silent rather....than retort in an argument..like some people use the personal information that you share with them against you when arguments and fights arise. That say something which you have only shared with them....and they publicise it and then you aren't able to believe the fact that they have virtualised something so private...you are in a WRECK..you cannot believe what you just heard and you can't reply to that person cause you are not able to believe what someone so close has said something to you..you walk away silently!!!

You go home..a sense of defeat falls upon you..all that frustration accumulates and you just want to vent out..so therefore a reply is essential and you need a person; a cousin, a friend, mom, dad anyone that you need to share cause talking about it helps rather that just breeding it inside you.

So have a voice..like let me tell you something...I was very sensitive and vulnerable and my friends used to stand up for me reply for me and all that then they used to tell me every time to stand up for myself and all and I knew I could do it..I used to go home beat up toys, ransack the room, throw stuff here and there and basically used to remove my anger on other people which was so wrong of me!
Every time other people stood up for me IT DEVASTATED ME RATHER THAN IMPROVING MY CONDITION! Like you feel handicapped for no reason..will you always need support...will you always expect someone else to be your voice? The answer is NO..One day every soon all that anger shall become courage and you shall face that person...appreciate those who stood up for you but tell them too loosen the strings a bit and they shall understand you completely and also give their support!

So yeah. I'm too much extrovert and I usually call a spade a spade..I'm not rude but I do make it a point that people don't violate me or disrespect me..One key to all confidence troubles and all that is self-respect. If you don't consider yourself capable and respectable..you will hands down never be able to command or rather earn respect from others. So SELF RESPECT IS THE KEY.

I hope I'm not boring you guys a lot..but after all this one expects you to be humble and polite to others...I know some teenagers might not even apply the rules of reverence in their lives and shall say that by annoying others they express their love for one another and all that is fine but respect will tell you that no matter what I'm all for you and you're my person!

So love all and more importantly repsect those who deserve it and carry it forward!

A new day

A new day haaaaass....a new day haaasss .........gone!!!

HEY  folks, please excuse the craziness. today was hectic like really...I felt busy and a little worked up..not because I did something highly productive but I had a lot of commitments to fulfil today..It started with my english class and then my math class directly..okay you guys should know that I do not and I mean I positively DO NOT step outside my house without a bath but today I did I woke up at 7 a.m. and hurried for my class at 7:30 without eating anything or taking a bath. I came home at 11 and then had my breakfast and took a bath.

Today as a part of the punishment of lying to ms.x I had to visit her and I had told her I'll most probably come by 12 and when people say "most probably" they are positively sugar-coating a blatant NO and thats a point. So I had my lunch and at 12:30 and hurried to ms.x's house which was a half an hour ride on the metro. So i finally met her..she was cribbing that I had messed up her timings cause I had come late and she said that I won't be let into the house if I come later that 1 and I did sadly and after a little pleading she just let me in!!

Then we just talked and did a little bit of a Math..Math was just an excuse cause her family was home and the excuse made by her was that I was coming there to do a little math.
We actually did math cause I'm kind of a workaholic but then we mostly talked and saw her pictures from her childhood days and vacations when she was a little "healthier".

Ms.x was not a skinny kid and is not a skinny girl..she is a very curvy dame but before a year she was not healthy..she lost NINETEEN KILOS by doing aerobics, dieting and running every single day for a year and I salute her for the efforts that she has put into herself and most of her s=confidence stems from this achievement that definitely should make her proud!

SO we saw her pics...she was like a mini man or a mini teddy bear...bahahhah.I just wanted to pull her cheeks!
Then ms.x noticed something!..she noticed that I hadn't cut my nails so she insisted on doing so..she told me that's what girlfriends and wives do and I believed her and agreed to it...well whatever I just let her cut one nail of mine cause my dear ms.x was scared that she'll cut my skin in the process of doing so! SHE SAID IT SHOWS TRUE LOVE

Then while doing Math we suddenly looked at each other and just decided to stop like seriously..and talked..we hugged kissed and then got too horny!!! like way too much and did stuff that would call for parental guidance to be enabled if broadcasted!

Anyways...our lives were fine until it was time for me to leave. I had reached her place at around 1:30 and when I said I wanted to leave at around 5:30 she got upset and then her mom said something to her and all of that happened. She wanted me to stay only half an hour more but I had to go home cause I really wanted to go to the gym but unfortunately I ended up ruining her mood and also wasn't able to go to the gym cause I was fucking late. Hope you guys know that we live damn far from each other! So yeah that Is why and I told her to remember thats it not the duration or that time that matters but it is the moments and memories that do! I hope she understands that.

Plus I wanted to tell you guys that I almost daily go for walks with a friend of mine who lives pretty close by..so I'll tell you what she told me..she is one cool girl who enjoys being single and has friends who are guys and is straight-forward...she told me that dating is not for all and for those who want to stay focused and want to succeed in business or studies shouldn't date...I agree that ur relationship occupies a major portion  on your plate but one only needs to manage and success will come and in the ned it it shouldn't make difference and if your focused and determined..you can balance both.

This has almost become a stereotype..the term too busy to date was recently used by me but one needs to be mentally prepared rather than practically to date!

                                           

Hey..folks..today was a BUSY and a BORING day..nothing special happened...Like I woke up at 6:50 in the morning and went to Classes at 7:30 without eating anything and from there directly to my Math class and came back at 11 and ate a little..

Ms.x texted me that she was very sick. Her head was paining yesterday at the mall also when I was with her and then she went to her cousin's part and was there till 2 in the morning.
So today when she woke up..she was ill. I got worried cause my inbox was flooded with her texts saying..that she had a head-ache..101 degree fever and she was dizzy and all...and I asked her if she had a period? Turns out she didn't ..Anyway I was kidding..I know when her period comes.

So whole day I was like telling her to take rest and not take a lot of stress and eat healthy. I told her to take a bath and sleep! She needed my love and I told her that I loved her a lot and overtime I did she smiled...One time, I kid you not she said she couldn't breathe..of course it was exaggerated but I grabbed the opportunity and told her that I would love to give her a mouth to mouth resuscitation!!

Thats that and other simple conversations..followed. I hit the gym in the afternoon and now I'm blogging..ms.x is telling that she needs the care but I'm late in replying..she is très hormonal and also mean..I told her goodnight and she said "ya bye"...I told her the polite way would be to say goodnight and she said "gn" as in the chat abbreviation and all that drama...I hope she gets well.she is too cute when she gets angry and I love convincing her and playing the weaker one!
That feeling is sort of amazing when you lose against someone you love...it is the only time submission tastes sweet!!!!

OKAY guy please pray for the people in Nepal..who are currently suffering from this ordeal. 

The sheer obliteration caused by the earthquake..is heart rending to see.

 May their souls rest in peace and those who are rendered alive may they find peace...

Mistake

SO I'll start my post from what happened yesterday, I was supposed to meet ms.x yesterday after my tuitions in the morning...when I say meet I mean meeting for lot of making our and personal time..the thing is that..I was tired of going to her side of Mumbai just to meet sit at her place and then one of my friends who is close suggested we make plan for carter's in Bandra and snacks over there at the seafront...which was so awesome..I mean seriously...the breeze, the sea and all.. plus going out with friends after such a long time!!!

I loved the idea so much and was so excited to go that I made a really bad error. I told ms.x that I had to go to family thing and yeah I committed the CARDINAL SIN...i lied and I was stupid...deemed to be condemned to hell! I had fun like it was a change and at the back of my head I knew I had to tell ms.x about this I just wanted to tell her in person now like all other's I do have a justification...It has happened in the past that whenever I'm free and I do something else she in someway or the other feels that I don't want to spend time with her but in reality I want her to be a part of all my great times...I've wanted to go to Bandra with her so many times..like just take her out of her habitat but her mother won't allow sometimes thats why!!! Also I was in just too much pressure after all the fights that we have had in the past I just wanted to prevent this one and in order to prevent this I took a step that was about to gather a storm..I had fun in Bandra...I came her called her and it was normal...she was with friends and she was telling me what was going..she was disappointed that I couldn't make it...I think she knew I was lying. I decided that I shall tell her when we meet i.e. in person!

Next day luckily she came..she was very happy to meet me...I was super happy that she agreed to come...because I talked to her for 3 hrs straight till 2 in the morning, the previous night!! She came and we were cordial and chit chatting about how the life has been and how she was obsessed to meet my brother...Then I told her that I had something to tell her and it was gonna affect her and just as I was saying this..she was checking her snapchat and she said it aloud..."YOU WENT TO CARTER'S RIGHT?!" and then I said yes and this happened because my friend had put our pic as her story!

She was out of words like she had told me this before that once you lie then its finished and she repeated it ...my heart stopped and her face was pale..she actually couldn't believe that I lied and she cried I couldn't see her cry..she told her friend about this and that friend asked her to promise him that she would never talk to me and that promise came with an ultimatum from him!! I was appalled by this...I teared up to!!! I said give me the worst punishment and I'll do it....I am stupid all guys are...she said that I had earned her trust after so long...and I had lost it in the blink of an eye...she said the she shall go away forever and that scar that I had left..shall stay forever!!  I told her to hear me out for once...I told her that I was in a lot of pressure regarding not making her angry and I seriously didn't wanna tell her about me meeting my friends and hanging with them..she would have felt worthless and she would have thought that I don't like being with her...like you know how girls think right! She understood the fact...but she couldn't  believe that I had lied..thanks a ton to the fact that she loves my cute little brother and my Mom who is just like her...shopping addict..and all that her mood was light...at one point she reached the door of my room and she was about to leave..I did everything in my power to stop her and she did..she lightened up a little she came to know from my mom that I was a very sensitive person in the past and I cared a lot and got attached. O told her that that wasn't me. Unlike other guys, I was not gonna beg for forgiveness. I acknowledged...that nothing could heal her scars and she can punish in whatever way she wants me...

I even asked her to SLAP me and she did and I didn't anticipate a hard one but it was pretty painful...and I realised she was damn powerful..I said that I cannot imagine one day not talking to her and today actually I thought I was going to lose her forever and I almost did. Hopefully as time passed she understood me,she gave into it  and I was so grateful to God. Later she told me that I made a big mistake and I had to win her trust back all over again...she told me that I shouldn't have lied cause it created a bigger fight than telling the truth would ever have! She told me all I had to do was tell her how I felt and try to include her into my happiness and I completely agreed..she is amazing isn't she!!

We then went to the mall where we shared Sbarro pizza and then had truffles and red velvet cake at The Rolling Pin Boulangerie and She was smiling all the time...and laughing cause when i took a bite of it I shut my eyes and literally had a foodgasm!! I LOVE food and her....while dropping her to the metro station.we were smiling at each other..articulating emotions through eye contact and expressions and holding hands...It was amazing....NO MORE to this long day..

WOW

THE FASHION INDUSTRY EXPOSED; ILLUMINATI AND OCCULT SCIENCES.

okay guys this is by far the most interesting and thrilling video I have ever seen..the facts that are revealed and the obscurity symbolised is surely gonna send a chill down your spine!!!!!!!

OKAY THIS VIDEO MIGHT BE TOO LONG FOR MOST OF YOU BUT I BET IT IS GONNA KEEP YOU SEATED FOR A WHILE I MEAN ITS SO INTERESTING AND OCCULT!!

POSITIVITY CONVERTED TO PRODUCTIVITY

Hey guys...sadly I'm not writing this post in my best spirits..ms.x and I we can't leave each other.although we ended things...every single emotion is there but it has taken a weird form...ms.x and my friends went out for dinner yesterday..she acted like the cliche hard to get girlfriend and I was flirting with her like anything.. I intruded every selfie she took, every speech of hers..it was as if I was confirming my presence in front of her..Deep down I wanted her to realise the void in our lives. While having lunch, I challenged her to keep the ring on the table and never pick it and leave it there cause it was like a charm that reminded her of memories with me...in a very hilarious way the waiter told her to wear the ring at that moment because he didn't want her to forget it and my friends called this fate!!!!

Next, we went to ms.x's house and saw 50 shades of Grey and ms.x sat besides me...she is one heck of a horny girl and we were like touching each other and caressing each other. Our physical desires took over logic and we forgot things had ended..after our friends left...there is NO DESCRIPTION of what we did...let me just say we took it to another level!!!

Like what are we..so many people would call us Friends with Benefits and all of that...but after the act we realise that what we actually are...she starts ignoring me and says harsh stuff..she talks about how other boyfriends are so caring and what all they do for their girlfriends and how much they care..she tell me about her millions of friends telling her to ignore me and block me completely out of her life and social media..frankly speaking I know she wants to mentally drain me and she does a good job at that...I'm made to feel worthless and incompetent and its the truth and such type of emotional pressure is felt by some many guys and teenagers in general who fight for attention, preference, clique etc. so thats all I wanted to say...GUYS i know its hard to receive and digest all that emotional comparisons but one should always hold ground and remember what they truly are!!! I know my basic set of words won't make a huge difference but I implore all of you guys out there to let everyone around you know that life cannot be led on someone else's whims and guidelines and expectations...there are gonna be numerous times when you won't be there for your friends when he just wants to talk to you..the same case might be for you..doesn't mean that friends don't care..they probably don't know your sadness or aren't in a position at that very moment to realise you needs.
Friends DON'T have a sixth sense to tell when another friend is sad happy dramatic moody.......

http://www.scoopwhoop.com/inothernews/generation-forgot-to-love/

Hey guys my day was boring I wrote 5 essays the whole day and saw two episodes of castle...that's it I just wanted to tell you guys that ms.x was not cordial with the break up completely...she met her cousins..her cousins who were those girls that u hear about in movies they hate their exes and they make sure that they live in hell. They advised ms.x to block me on whatsapp and ignore me for a month..they even told her that she could've done BETTER!!! They also said some rude stuff about me like really rude stuff...I mean thy judged me like fuck and neither has been in my shoes or even known me..one of them hasn't even seen me or had a conversation with me...isn't that appalling!!! Anyways ms.x gave into it and ignored me, I mean how gullible. Since I told you guys that we made out really well for the last time..she told me she wanted to have the experience for the last time and I had promised her that I shall make her happy no matter what and she said that by doing all "that" I could make her happy and the same night she acts as if I'm a no one and I felt that I was used like a flying fuck..BUt since I'm a guy I got over it and we talked pretty normally..flirting casually and she was also pretty casual and laughable and all that. I was happy to her perky and  jolly!!!! So that's about it..also we are meeting tomorrow with all friends for a luncheon and then movie at her place and guess what which movie ..50 SHADES OF GREY!!! Ill tell u what happens tomorrow..I just don't wanna be awkward tomorrow in front of her 

WOMEN EMPOWERMENT BY ME

WILL IT ALWAYS BE A MAN’S WORLD?

When I think about how I was introduced to this topic and how I developed or rather understood this concept of gender inequality I thought of this adage:

 

“Behind every successful man there is a woman!”

Our credible forefathers have left us with time honoured tradition and many sayings as the one stated above, well the very existence of this saying shows that women have been underrated! In the moral stated above, woman has to be ‘behind’ that successful man to redeem her presence. Will she always have to “behind” her better half to prove herself..will she ever come forward and match up let alone surpass? This essay is an ode to all those women who need to realise their true worth and command reverence.

In my highly religious and “peace-loving” country, women have been mistreated in the past and even now , this is true, however crass and bitter it may sound. For example, if we look at our country’s so called glorious history, women who have tried to display prowess and leadership skills have been put to the grave or burnt at the stake. Rani Laxmibai died in a battle where her own kingdom revolted against her because they couldn’t bear the thought of a female sitting on the throne. Same was the case with Razia Sultana, who took over her father’s throne upon his death but soon received the same fate as her father did. These women have been the epitome of female aversion and insult.

The 21st century is different, with high literacy rates and a cosmopolitan feature visible, women have gotten a voice but is it heard? A statistical study shows that about 93.47% of India is rural and illiteracy is still rampant. Patriarchal society has positively no expectations from women. They consider them as a “tool” to run the domestic chores and provide for the family tree by giving birth. Her opinions do not matter in financial talks. It seems that the woman in rural areas have also given up. When we look at the concept of an Indian marriage, the cracks of our society are displayed, the dowry system still exists in most of the villages, it is done under covers. It is quite appalling to see that a female who leaves her home, an organ of her life behind, has to pay for it. In my perspective dowry is given because ‘she’ is considering a liability and the transfer of liability comes with a price. Men, on the other hand in marriage have to ride on a steed and arrive royally at the wedding place.

People like us who live in developed, cosmopolitan cities hardly get to witness these bitter facets of life. But that doesn’t mean they cease to exist. Some conservative families still practice them in the name of ‘preserving our culture’ ; e.g.. women have to eat after their husbands have finished, they have to eat from their husband’s plate. Doesn’t she atleast deserve another plate? There are also things like; ‘women can’t enter temples when they are on their periods.’ No matter how absurd it sounds, it is the truth. Even, Shakespeare, who by some is considered the greatest writer of all times called woman a “weaker vessel” in his play ‘As You Like It’ 

Is this illiteracy or just negligence? Well according to me women need to stand up for what they believe in, the concept of “go with the flow” proves to be catastrophic in this scenario. Women need to proudly and loudly declare their significance! The need to wake up because there are malevolent, chauvinistic and misogynistic men out there who can rape for carnal pleasure.

Thus, women need to break through the shackles of society, let alone maintain and promote their significance. An essay of 450-500 words may not contribute even an iota to their struggle but I hope this implores all women to not be satisfied with what they’ve got, because:

“Life is way beyond just being an instrument for both and running the family”

My Day

So today was my interview at the youth incorporated magazine and it went pretty well. I chose editorial and designing as my option and I'm gonna work there for a month. I just have to send them a write-up of any topic that interests me and I'm definitely going to write on social issues, basically women empowerment. I'm gonna post the write-up on the blog for you guys to see so please check it out! The office is in SoBo so travelling gonna be a huge pain in the ass and I'm very worried about it.
Today I hired an uber but I can't of that every day. I love travelling and I'm that kinda person who loves looking outside the car and imagining things and all..so I saw many sights like slums and ruined mills amongst posh 120 floored high-rises and the sea-link and all that. So today I had the essence of South Bombay alone and I love travelling alone.

These are few of the pics that I took..the office is pretty close to the sea-face so amazing views are guaranteed while returning home from my job.

Another BIG news to tell you guys. MS.X and I are no longer together...I know its very sad. We are still in love with each other but I am so packed preparing for my twelfth and with all the fights and arguments and other people making us feel vulnerable we just decided to stop it and concentrate. Maybe it wasn't the right time for me to dat and I wasn't capable enough to deliver what was expected of me...she cried very hard today..I hugged her.. she tried to stop me..but ended up hugging me harder ...we decided that we will always contact each other and still say the same. She said that to get over me she had to not talk to me for a month minimum and I didn't want that to happen cause O somehow know its gonna destroy both of us..and she is my person I tell her everything. She then removed all the stuff that I had given her and of course the ring..I forced her to keep but she said that it will remind her of moments. I explained her that I will always be the closest person to her and will take care of her..we laughed and cracked a few jokes and I made her wear the ring and now its hers forever!

THE RING! AGAIN

Isn't that the best and the most mature split you've ever heard of, I wish every relationship yields wise, mature, and mutual decisions cause a relationship isn't a one way streak..guys please remember. Your girl is precious respect her and don't just dump her. If for some reason you're not able to be in the relationship, be frank and tell her in the sweetest way possible. It's okay if it is a bit rehearsed..so put your best to not make it ugly..also if you have a bitter truth to say then let the truth be said she shall surely appreciate your transparency later. The one mistake which most guys and even girls make is they break up on phone, text or in haste without thinking. If one has invested in a relationship, one might as well invest a shit in winding up. Its HIGHLY advisable tho meet up privately and talk it off...make her smile think of memories..take out gifts..promise her that you will still care..and this feeling shall reflexively appear if you truly loved the person at any point of time!

SO THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY TO DEAL WITH PROBLEMS .......PATIENCE AND CONSIDERATION ARE USUALLY THE ANSWERS.

THE DAY OF BOWLING IN SLO MO

I have already told you guys that I got my results right...they might not be amazing, I'm certainly not highest but then what actually matters is I'm satisfied. Like people whine about how what they get is not enough and complaint how others get more. Teenagers be like...why ain't  I that thin..why don't I have a hot girlfriend, or you die to sit with your crush and the lost is endless what actually matters is what you got with yourself and how you are trying to work on it. People who say they go to the gym for looks, girls or what not are not gonna end up to anything. Whatever you do please do it for your health and best feel. 

Hope you guys don't just follow hot girls and and cool fashion pages on Instagram and follow fitness pages and motivational pages, there are many so make your own way through it.

Hey y'all how you doing??!!

Today I got the results for my exam and they were pretty great...I'm satisfied and I believe that all the handwork has paid off.  Another great news ms.x got great marks too and by great marks I mean she topped.

So in this log I'm gonna talk about what happened yesterday. In the morning I was like frantically answering questions of my Much Ado About Nothing workbook and the deadline was today....and I was whining and annoyed. For the afternoon my friends and I were to go bowling and I had requested ms.x to come too..she wanted all her girlfriends to come so she was calling everyone and persuading them to pitch in, but sadly to no avail. Only my close friend agreed to come. She was greatly annoyed by the above and then to top it all her wifi got fucked up and she wasn't able to complete her project.

I offered her to come up to my place and complete it either before going to bowling or after..she was winging about the fact like shed have to travel...not eat on time and all that. I genuinely felt bad for her. She told me that she'd do it hat her cousins place cause it was just a  few blocks away. I told her that whatever she does with the project but she has to come for bowling. Considering the fact that she was already annoyed, I told her not to take pressure and come if she could and not if she can't, cause I  just wanted to ease her out. 

For this, she started yelling at me that I was the one who didn't want her to come there in the first place when the truth is that I had been begging her to do so, probably not that earnestly.

She told me that I didn't tell her that she 'had' to come, instead I gave her a choice. Now this is where I'm throw into a fix, like if you give a girl too much space, she'll complaint and too little then she will rail. Anyway, she suddenly decided to meet her friend and thens suddenly decided to come at my place instead. I was very annoyed cause my homework was left and my mood was ruined cause her's was too. I was kind of angry at her for making such a big mess out of such a simple issue.

When she came, we were sad, ignoring, and on the verge of breaking relations but I saved it reminding her of the promises the we made of coming back to each other no matter what.

THESE ARE THE CHATS THAT I SENT HER LONG AGO..OUR BOND IS SEALED...PLS EXCUSE THE TYPOS

Then with a little dark cloud still between us I asked her to smile and off we went for bowling...isn't it damn funny that things and moods change so quickly, probably this is exactly what is called teenage!

Before going to bowling, she like a ring from the accessorize store and I got her that ring and she loved it...I mean she got so happy that she had just received the gift of life! I loved to see the smile on her face.

THATS THE RING!

MY BOWLING SCORE!

I'M 'P' ON THE LIST.

Hey y'all was just surfing on YouTube the other day and I came across these very inspiring videos from famous you tubers called Kaelyn and Lucy. So here's a a shoutout of love to the both of you!!!
Please watch this video it shall make your heart happy cause real stories are always relatable!

Hey readers!! Hope everything's going well...and if it isn't I do hope y'all find a ray of hope or solution.

So I have some sad stuff or rather serious stuff to talk about. Do you guys ever feel that you have known or indirectly heard of some person who is exactly one of the mean girls or guys you see on T.V. or movies..and you think that why on God's green earth does such shit exist!!?? Like I personally can't stand such people, who are mean and shallow on another level. I'm talking about a person that I know since years...like he isn't my friend but he was in the same grade as me and I knew him a little cause he had stories of dating...breaking up...being the Indian playboy..LOL, if that makes sense!
He was very sweet before to everyone but due to all the fucking attention that he got, he got cocky and arrogant. Isn't the story too cliche, like he was the sports captain for our school,  he had the looks the 'looks', don't they always make a difference.

So he was a my friend's friend since childhood. This friend of mine, is the one that I go on walks almost every day and talk about anything I want to, cause I know she would never in a million years judge me. She is so true to what she says plus she is rooted and ambitious.  Eight years down the line, she was a new student and had come from China. This guy was by chance her friend and it stuck. This girl was different, she was quiet, reserved and did not mix promptly into the groups...did I ever mention that I hate something called "groupism"..so she found him as a friend and as you guys might have guessed..with all the attention and puberty..his priorities and attitude changed  and he turned into a royal jackass.

Enough with history now lets talk about the present. So this friend of mine and mr. douchebag are in college and I'm in school cause in my state one can opt to continue school and then take admission into a university (complicated state education jargon). So she is in one college and he is another and they go to the same english class. So my friend texted me saying she is very sad because of something he told her..I think it started out pretty normally but then they went personal and my friend told him to stay in his limits and that everyone around there knows about his messed up relationships, which is one hundred percent true. He then told her that she should keep her mouth shut cause he knows how desperate she was to be with him and "fit in"..thus this guy brings out an 8 year old topic and hurts my friends feelings. She felt so bad, she just walked away cause she didn't wanna say anything and I'm sure that this incident wouldn't have weighed an ounce on his conscience.

My friend tells me that she reminisces about the happy funny times they had spent as kids..but those were the days of innocence. When I heard of this incident I wanted to kill him, give him the worst throat punch ever but in the end I told her to forget about it, as two years down the line it wouldn't even matter to her where he is who is he with and if he is dead or alive. excuse me if I sound cold but truth be told right..sometimes you just gotta give a flying fuck to people and tell them to measure their own balls. I might sound rude but I'm being very honest with you guys, I was in great rage after hearing this incident and no one like of their friend gets hurt right?

One secret! My friend had a crush on this guy like many other girls did  but she never told him about it, cause of her weight and all other issues. Its just sad that people like that don't get that much respect though they are so much more amiable and admiring. Do looks and the skin on you command respect..have the days changed so much!!?? I LOVE MY FRIEND FOR WHO SHE IS

Anyway, to those, who face they need a voice, or feel that they are fat, ugly or not too good to fit in. Let me tell you guys something, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and you might want to kick someone's ass and run away from that person who derides you for what you appear to be! There is nothing called fat and ugly...and you have to be the one to tell the people that around you..im sorry but you have to gather self respect to earn respect and you got to stand up for yourself. I know its very hard and its shit scary, I have had friends who have stood up for me and were called my bodyguards, they did it cause they loved me but face it after a time it makes you feel vulnerable and that frustration will burst and it will take only a spark for that fight and defence to take place! If someone calls you fat...tell them that they should better mind their own business as you aren't eating from their father's money! Never be scared of complaining to the teacher or a mentor, you might be risking being called a "complaint box" but you comfort and piece of mind are much important. Also its fine if you don't talk about all this to your parents, but please do cause they can do everything in their power to stop it and asking for help isn't a sign of weakness! But i personally find it much more comfortable to talk to friends about this so do whatever works for you but please do cause letting it be will only make it worse.

I have been in those situations where I had no one to talk to cause I wasn't cool or sporty enough but I found my people and those I could relate too. Friends have to be those who respect you the most.
Hope you guys recognise your friends and at this age it's my request to all teenagers who are eager to fit in...its only a matter of time before you'd have to leave the mould and find your own lining.

Please share your personal struggles if you desire to and help me get inspired..If you have said something mean to your friends and it is now that you realise it...its never too late to apologise and its a sign that you are a person who has courage and a pure heart!

They that have power to hurt, and will do none,

That do not do the thing they most do show,

Who, moving others, are themselves as stone,

Unmoved, cold, and to temptation slow;

They rightly do inherit heaven's graces,

And husband nature's riches from expense;

They are the lords and owners of their faces,

Others, but stewards of their excellence.

The summer's flower is to the summer sweet,

Though to itself, it only live and die,

But if that flower with base infection meet,

The basest weed outbraves his dignity: 

   For sweetest things turn sourest by their deeds;

   Lilies that fester, smell far worse than weeds.

So today as the day ends I want to tell you guys that today was one of the most controlled and serious days of my life..after the fight that I had with ms.x yesterday and the fact that my relationship with her is stable but supported by a sensitive and a very fragile thread of hope, scares the eff out of me..today I got selected for the logistics committee of the annual world summit organized by my school. It's a very prestigious post but I have always wanted to be in press and I had even applied for it and I'll do my best to get it. Anyways after I came home I talked to ms.x on FaceTime  while I was doing my homework. That is how much I love having here besides me..so to all the guys out there take as much care as possible of the worlds greatest creation and the creator of life..she deserves respect love and support and if you are not able to give it all the time Hope you learn something from the mistakes you make..even if you feel she is not the right one..make her know she is going to be an angel for someone else!!!

NET NEUTRALITY

Good Morning folks...was just surfing and checking out youth and was effing  happy to see my favourite channel, All India Bakchod (AIB) to upload there video after their friction with the government and their charges that politicians and the who's who of Bombay laid against them..

so this is their video on net neutrality and the amount of transparency with which they speak inspires me and its so funny..these are exactly my thoughts on net neutrality and hope this video tells you what it is and whats it gonna do to your country!!

PLEASE CHECK IT OUT AND COMMENT

This is difficult, I know I haven't written since a long time because there has been a lot going on in my life. My exams ended yesterday and I had a fight with ms.x before too because she was a little curt to meet and didn't say I love you even after i begged her to say cause I wanted her to...I just love the sound of it.....IM IN LOVE WITH THE IDEA OF LOVE. The thing was that due to studying for nights I fell a little sick and I shut my phone off and went to sleep, I told ms.x "goodnight" but unfortunately she was still texting me, which is why I had a fight with her, its like we fight over stupid stuff all the time and I am tired of doing that I just want her to understand that its okay if not able to reply on time on whatsapp. Do you guys go through something like this too? We are so much in love that every so not perfect thing hurts her and I completely understand her pain when I might have shut the phone..that feeling of loneliness can kill you!!


The next day my exams ended and I was thrilled like anything...my friends were making plans for outings and one of my friends had already made a plan for bowling...one friend of mine she never comes for anything and I did want her to come. I put my heart and soul into convincing her because its just who I am I care about the smallest of things and apparently my stupid brain forgot that I had to care for someone a little more..I of course was gonna ask her too but when I did she said NO!
She said that wasn't even asked properly by me and wasn't even invited...I know girls love being pampered but so much seriously.. anyways then I went to her place cause as promised I was supposed to be with her after school and I loved it..we kissed, hugged, felt each other after so long and in a relationship only one thing matters and I hands-down know everyone shall agree to it that happiness is the only reason you got into or invested into a relationship and at that time when we made out...our passion showed how happy we were to be together.


Then I came home and went for a walk with my best friend who has known me for years, I do this cause I live far away from ms.x and whenever I spend time with her but when i can't reply to her or i late reply she gets a little irritated and tries a lot to hide that irritation from me but it shows pretty evidently...I also told her that I that we could have lunch together but that plan couldn't work out because I had my english tuitions and she got very disappointed and annoyed I just wish she could have understood where I was coming from and see eye to eye. She said that she wasn't gonna come for bowling and It never made a difference to me and she has been going on about how Im not able to pamper her and not give her enough and I chose to spend time with my friend..of whom she is obviously insecure of but deep down she knows me she is my best friend and doesn't need to worry cause we have had this conversation before and she know how long we have been friends!!


ms. x and I have know each other only for ten months and I'm in love with her, but I have ten years worth of friendship from my previous school which is miles apart from my present school and so there is no link. I get where she is coming from since she has very little idea of my life here but I expect her to understand a little that I'm trying my best to manage and I have full plate with internship and social work coming up. So I thought about it and probably thats the biggest mistake I made..."I thought"... about the fact that I felt caged in a place where i had to think before everything I did and not be myself and was I losing myself....so I told ms.x that I was giving second thoughts on the relationship and she got affected a lot which I knew was coming..I was tired of all this but today I begged her to come today and she came to my place and we ate pizza together and I sorted shit out but again later in the night she did some drama and talked about how I need to stay after school on Friday and i told her that I couldn't since I had to go out...It is a family thing. So she said that I am supposed to do this and I had to be the guy in the relationship and all of that.


That hurt me and I told her that I wanted to decide and probably split...she sent me a WIKIHOW LINK ON HOW TO BE A GOOD TEEN BOYFRIEND and I didn't read it..


I was the one who wanted to go, I lost hope and I reconsidered, I questioned myself how could I let it go so easily, she came all the from her home which is miles away for me and to sort things out and i lost hope!! I started crying...please don't tell this to anyone, I didn't tell her! I called her then and told her I have no one yo give me advice and I need a person to tell me what to do..she told me that "baby you are pressurising yourself too much and its very hard for me too but I I'm giving 3/4th of  myself up and I will give up my happiness for my happiness"...that melted my heart. She cares for me so much..she makes a lot of sacrifices and I was probably over thinking a lot..she is definitely pampered,   judgmental and has attitude but she tones it down for me and its very wrong of me to not give it a chance so agin I gave in and fell in love again....


I BELIEVE THAT LOVE IS A DRUG! I asked for a solution and told her that with the internship and my classes what if I'm not able to live up to what you want and ur expectations and what if things don't go the way you want them to? she said that i gotta make compromises and if not able to then she shall understand and she told me that iw as sign hope easily and since its our first relationship we need to analyse maturely, which what we don't do when we argue! I told her that we shall give it time and sort..she also had cried on the phone..she is very emotional that way and I have very less experience with emotions I, for the first time also cried and for someone else...it just happened! Ms. x and I are deeply in love it will probably kill us to separate and we are too different people with different ways and thoughts of doing everything...that is why we argue so much..my relationship with her is very sensitive, yet very precious to the the best of us..im very scared that I shall have to end it..cause I don't know if we aren't compatible or what but sometimes it just doesn't work out that well! She has gone beyond ways to be someone and I have done the same...I just ask myself what if one day i cannot put in that extra effort..It scares me.

Sometimes..I feel she is demanding, sometimes I only feel that there is affection behind it and probably thats the way love is viewed by her eyes and thats totally fine...I just hope that we grow mature after each and every argument and make up for it..this happened in consecutive days and I literally felt that this wasn't gonna work but probably she saved me..Bottom line...MS.X IS VERY IMPORTANT AND SOMEONE I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO COMPLETELY FORGET EVEN IF I HAVE TO..we just have to work it out and hope for the best...i do hope she lowers her attitude and her nitpicking on me!!

It was very hard for me to write about this..going down memory lane is always hard especially when you have a rocky road to go through.
The only intent behind this log is to gain empathy and not sympathy!
Just need your wishes for the both of us!

Crazy stuff

LOL I MADE MY LIL BRO WEAR HIS UNDERWEAR..BAHAHAH...that's called full control!! 

Okay there's nothing much to say but I am very very busy doing economics and there is something that I have to tell you guys..something very sad happend last night but thankfully it got sorted, and I believe that it was magic or God that helped me, it was between me and ms.x and it's a very long story...of course another huge immature misunderstanding so to say!

I'll post tomorrow once I get my log out from this thick pool of economic theories.  so my dear readers,stay tuned for more!!!

Food porn with a garnish of History

When conniving Mughal upstart Aurangzeb imprisoned his father, Emperor Shah Jahan, in Agra Fort in 1657, he told him he could choose just one thing to eat every day for the rest of his life. The old man chose chick peas because the prison cook told him he would be able to make something different every day of the year.

Until recently, I would have snorted in disbelief in this  – chick peas?  Synonymous with hairy hippies in bedsits and tubs of slimy supermarket hummous?  Then came ‘Chana  Bhatura’ and I discovered  I could actively crave something involving chick peas.

There are very few deep-fried foods I can resist and I admit what first attracted me to this dish, in places like Evergreen in Green Park and Nathus in Bengali Market, were the magnificent balloon-sized puffed-up ‘bhatura’.  In the early days the  accompanying chana was just a sloppy, sludge-coloured distraction.  I used to dip the bread but I’m ashamed to admit the chick peas often went back to the kitchen barely touched.

chana bhatura

It’s hard to say how things changed, all I know is before long the bhatura was merely the vehicle for scooping ever more of the soft,  creamy, spicy peas.

I’m now more likely to eat at the kind of joint that offers ‘unlimited chana’.  Like Sita Ram Diwan Chand in Paharganj, where we headed last week in the latest leg of our mission to persuade Delhi’s finest  street food joints to part with their secret family recipes.

That One's Mine

From their small shop in Chuna Mandi near the Imperial Cinema, Sita Ram make what many Delhi-ites believe to be the perfect Chana Bhatura. Certainly many customers, including leading industrialists and movie stars, travel great distances for their daily fix.

When we arrived at about 9am, the two or three tables outside the tiny kerbside restaurant were already buzzing with customers on their way to work. We managed to put away a plate each in no time.

Every mouthful was memorable but particularly those where I managed to cram in paneer-laced bhatura, chick peas, onion and pickled carrot, all at the same time. I strongly urge everyone to do this sometime soon and take a moment to give thanks for what’s going on in your mouth.  I bet those  8 years in Agra Fort just flew by.

We spoke to  fellow diner, 72 year-old Gulshan Jaggi who has been coming to the shop since 1948, often several times a week, even though he no longer lives in the neighbourhood.  He maintains the Chana Bhatura is as good now as it was then, “I have tasted Chana Bhatura all over Delhi,” he said. “But here the chole is unique, very delicious.  They maintain the standards set down by their ancestors.”

The Great Men of Chana

After we’d polished off a third plate, Pran Kohli, the current owner, took us through the history.  His grandfather, Diwan Chand,  arrived in Delhi from what is now  Pakistan at the time of Partition in 1947 with little more than his recipe for Chana Bhatura. For almost 30 years, he and his son Sita Ram pushed a handcart around Paharganj before moving into their present shop in Chuna Mandi.

Sita Ram Diwan Chand owner, Pran Kohli

Pran Kohli joined the business straight from school in 1984. and has done little to alter the winning formula handed down to him – if it’s not broke, don’t fix it, I say. The secret, he says, is to treat even the most humble ingredients with respect. “This is a cheap roadside dish, but we use good quality ingredients so it’s better than others.  We don’t want to compromise.” The result is food infused with love and care; a perfect combination of flavours and textures which,  like all of the best street food in India, is a world-class   feast.

The Recipes

Chana

Chana

Soak 1kg chick peas overnight.  In the morning, boil the chick peas in fresh water for 30 minutes then add 25g bicarbonate of soda (according to Pran Kohli this speeds up the softening of the chick peas and aids  digestion)

Brown 300g chopped onion in oil or ghee.  Add 200g yogurt, 200g chopped tomatoes and 1tsp turmeric.  Cook on a low heat for about one hour until the mixture is a deep reddish colour.  When the chick peas are ready, drain off the cooking water and mix with the tomato  and onion gravy.  Add 20g salt, 20g black pepper, 30g dried pomegranate powder (anardana) and 15g garm masala – Sita Ram Diwan Chand’s mix, which they make themselves, contains black pepper, cinnamon, cloves, nutmeg, mace, coriander, cumin and something called ‘sud’ which I haven’t found a translation of yet).  Mix well and add 200g potatoes made as follows:

For 1 kg cooked potatoes, chop 200g onion and cook in oil with 200g chopped tomatoes and 1tsp turmeric to make a gravy then add 10g salt, 10g black pepper, 5g red chilli powder, 25g dried pomegranate powder and 20g garm masala.  Cook the gravy until masala is roasted.

Bhatura

Bhatura

Mix 1kg plain flour (maida) and 1tsp baking powder with approximately 400g water (enough to make a soft dough).  Knead well for 7-10 minutes or until dough is soft and springy.  Put in a bowl and leave, covered with damp tea towel for  at least one and a half hours.

For the bhatura stuffing, finely chop 300g of paneer and add 10g salt, 5g cumin seeds, 5g garm masala, 5g black pepper, 10g chopped  fresh coriander. Press a handful of  stuffing into each small ball of dough before rolling out and frying.

Sita Ram Diwan Chand’s Chana Bhatura comes with slices of onion and pickled vegetables (carrot when we visited but varies according to the season) and both play an important part in creating a perfect combination of flavours.

pickled carrots

Pickled Carrot

Wash and cut up 1kg of carrot into long chunks and steep for a few days in 2 litres of ‘sour water’ (water containing 25g black mustard seed, 10g salt, 5g turmeric). Wash the carrots, add 10g salt, 5g red chilli and mix well.

Sita Ram Diwan Chand

Chuna Mandi, opposite Imperial Cinema, Paharganj

Open 8-5 daily

Hey guys! Here I am after my Math test and thank God, it was pretty good! Thats a lot of burden off of my head and now I'm one exam away from eternal bliss....don't you guys too feel that rush of excitement and adrenaline when something you've been waiting for so long is just about to happen, the feeling is just like the one before opening a nutella jar, wedding, an awaited kiss or while your just about to see your darling!


 Every moment feels like a year and I JUST CANT WAIT! These are the moments that make life, our anxiety, excitement, fear, love, joy and emotions are the one that give us the best ride that the roller coaster of life has to offer!

SO FOLKS, CHERISH EACH EMOTION, CHERISH EACH DAY EVEN IF ITS YOUR LAST AND SOMEONE ELSE'S FIRST!