SO I'll start my post from what happened yesterday, I was supposed to meet ms.x yesterday after my tuitions in the morning...when I say meet I mean meeting for lot of making our and personal time..the thing is that..I was tired of going to her side of Mumbai just to meet sit at her place and then one of my friends who is close suggested we make plan for carter's in Bandra and snacks over there at the seafront...which was so awesome..I mean seriously...the breeze, the sea and all.. plus going out with friends after such a long time!!!
I loved the idea so much and was so excited to go that I made a really bad error. I told ms.x that I had to go to family thing and yeah I committed the CARDINAL SIN...i lied and I was stupid...deemed to be condemned to hell! I had fun like it was a change and at the back of my head I knew I had to tell ms.x about this I just wanted to tell her in person now like all other's I do have a justification...It has happened in the past that whenever I'm free and I do something else she in someway or the other feels that I don't want to spend time with her but in reality I want her to be a part of all my great times...I've wanted to go to Bandra with her so many times..like just take her out of her habitat but her mother won't allow sometimes thats why!!! Also I was in just too much pressure after all the fights that we have had in the past I just wanted to prevent this one and in order to prevent this I took a step that was about to gather a storm..I had fun in Bandra...I came her called her and it was normal...she was with friends and she was telling me what was going..she was disappointed that I couldn't make it...I think she knew I was lying. I decided that I shall tell her when we meet i.e. in person!
Next day luckily she came..she was very happy to meet me...I was super happy that she agreed to come...because I talked to her for 3 hrs straight till 2 in the morning, the previous night!! She came and we were cordial and chit chatting about how the life has been and how she was obsessed to meet my brother...Then I told her that I had something to tell her and it was gonna affect her and just as I was saying this..she was checking her snapchat and she said it aloud..."YOU WENT TO CARTER'S RIGHT?!" and then I said yes and this happened because my friend had put our pic as her story!
She was out of words like she had told me this before that once you lie then its finished and she repeated it ...my heart stopped and her face was pale..she actually couldn't believe that I lied and she cried I couldn't see her cry..she told her friend about this and that friend asked her to promise him that she would never talk to me and that promise came with an ultimatum from him!! I was appalled by this...I teared up to!!! I said give me the worst punishment and I'll do it....I am stupid all guys are...she said that I had earned her trust after so long...and I had lost it in the blink of an eye...she said the she shall go away forever and that scar that I had left..shall stay forever!! I told her to hear me out for once...I told her that I was in a lot of pressure regarding not making her angry and I seriously didn't wanna tell her about me meeting my friends and hanging with them..she would have felt worthless and she would have thought that I don't like being with her...like you know how girls think right! She understood the fact...but she couldn't believe that I had lied..thanks a ton to the fact that she loves my cute little brother and my Mom who is just like her...shopping addict..and all that her mood was light...at one point she reached the door of my room and she was about to leave..I did everything in my power to stop her and she did..she lightened up a little she came to know from my mom that I was a very sensitive person in the past and I cared a lot and got attached. O told her that that wasn't me. Unlike other guys, I was not gonna beg for forgiveness. I acknowledged...that nothing could heal her scars and she can punish in whatever way she wants me...
I even asked her to SLAP me and she did and I didn't anticipate a hard one but it was pretty painful...and I realised she was damn powerful..I said that I cannot imagine one day not talking to her and today actually I thought I was going to lose her forever and I almost did. Hopefully as time passed she understood me,she gave into it and I was so grateful to God. Later she told me that I made a big mistake and I had to win her trust back all over again...she told me that I shouldn't have lied cause it created a bigger fight than telling the truth would ever have! She told me all I had to do was tell her how I felt and try to include her into my happiness and I completely agreed..she is amazing isn't she!!
We then went to the mall where we shared Sbarro pizza and then had truffles and red velvet cake at The Rolling Pin Boulangerie and She was smiling all the time...and laughing cause when i took a bite of it I shut my eyes and literally had a foodgasm!! I LOVE food and her....while dropping her to the metro station.we were smiling at each other..articulating emotions through eye contact and expressions and holding hands...It was amazing....NO MORE to this long day..
I loved the idea so much and was so excited to go that I made a really bad error. I told ms.x that I had to go to family thing and yeah I committed the CARDINAL SIN...i lied and I was stupid...deemed to be condemned to hell! I had fun like it was a change and at the back of my head I knew I had to tell ms.x about this I just wanted to tell her in person now like all other's I do have a justification...It has happened in the past that whenever I'm free and I do something else she in someway or the other feels that I don't want to spend time with her but in reality I want her to be a part of all my great times...I've wanted to go to Bandra with her so many times..like just take her out of her habitat but her mother won't allow sometimes thats why!!! Also I was in just too much pressure after all the fights that we have had in the past I just wanted to prevent this one and in order to prevent this I took a step that was about to gather a storm..I had fun in Bandra...I came her called her and it was normal...she was with friends and she was telling me what was going..she was disappointed that I couldn't make it...I think she knew I was lying. I decided that I shall tell her when we meet i.e. in person!
Next day luckily she came..she was very happy to meet me...I was super happy that she agreed to come...because I talked to her for 3 hrs straight till 2 in the morning, the previous night!! She came and we were cordial and chit chatting about how the life has been and how she was obsessed to meet my brother...Then I told her that I had something to tell her and it was gonna affect her and just as I was saying this..she was checking her snapchat and she said it aloud..."YOU WENT TO CARTER'S RIGHT?!" and then I said yes and this happened because my friend had put our pic as her story!
She was out of words like she had told me this before that once you lie then its finished and she repeated it ...my heart stopped and her face was pale..she actually couldn't believe that I lied and she cried I couldn't see her cry..she told her friend about this and that friend asked her to promise him that she would never talk to me and that promise came with an ultimatum from him!! I was appalled by this...I teared up to!!! I said give me the worst punishment and I'll do it....I am stupid all guys are...she said that I had earned her trust after so long...and I had lost it in the blink of an eye...she said the she shall go away forever and that scar that I had left..shall stay forever!! I told her to hear me out for once...I told her that I was in a lot of pressure regarding not making her angry and I seriously didn't wanna tell her about me meeting my friends and hanging with them..she would have felt worthless and she would have thought that I don't like being with her...like you know how girls think right! She understood the fact...but she couldn't believe that I had lied..thanks a ton to the fact that she loves my cute little brother and my Mom who is just like her...shopping addict..and all that her mood was light...at one point she reached the door of my room and she was about to leave..I did everything in my power to stop her and she did..she lightened up a little she came to know from my mom that I was a very sensitive person in the past and I cared a lot and got attached. O told her that that wasn't me. Unlike other guys, I was not gonna beg for forgiveness. I acknowledged...that nothing could heal her scars and she can punish in whatever way she wants me...
I even asked her to SLAP me and she did and I didn't anticipate a hard one but it was pretty painful...and I realised she was damn powerful..I said that I cannot imagine one day not talking to her and today actually I thought I was going to lose her forever and I almost did. Hopefully as time passed she understood me,she gave into it and I was so grateful to God. Later she told me that I made a big mistake and I had to win her trust back all over again...she told me that I shouldn't have lied cause it created a bigger fight than telling the truth would ever have! She told me all I had to do was tell her how I felt and try to include her into my happiness and I completely agreed..she is amazing isn't she!!
We then went to the mall where we shared Sbarro pizza and then had truffles and red velvet cake at The Rolling Pin Boulangerie and She was smiling all the time...and laughing cause when i took a bite of it I shut my eyes and literally had a foodgasm!! I LOVE food and her....while dropping her to the metro station.we were smiling at each other..articulating emotions through eye contact and expressions and holding hands...It was amazing....NO MORE to this long day..
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