Hey guys...sadly I'm not writing this post in my best spirits..ms.x and I we can't leave each other.although we ended things...every single emotion is there but it has taken a weird form...ms.x and my friends went out for dinner yesterday..she acted like the cliche hard to get girlfriend and I was flirting with her like anything.. I intruded every selfie she took, every speech of hers..it was as if I was confirming my presence in front of her..Deep down I wanted her to realise the void in our lives. While having lunch, I challenged her to keep the ring on the table and never pick it and leave it there cause it was like a charm that reminded her of memories with me...in a very hilarious way the waiter told her to wear the ring at that moment because he didn't want her to forget it and my friends called this fate!!!!

Next, we went to ms.x's house and saw 50 shades of Grey and ms.x sat besides me...she is one heck of a horny girl and we were like touching each other and caressing each other. Our physical desires took over logic and we forgot things had ended..after our friends left...there is NO DESCRIPTION of what we did...let me just say we took it to another level!!!

Like what are we..so many people would call us Friends with Benefits and all of that...but after the act we realise that what we actually are...she starts ignoring me and says harsh stuff..she talks about how other boyfriends are so caring and what all they do for their girlfriends and how much they care..she tell me about her millions of friends telling her to ignore me and block me completely out of her life and social media..frankly speaking I know she wants to mentally drain me and she does a good job at that...I'm made to feel worthless and incompetent and its the truth and such type of emotional pressure is felt by some many guys and teenagers in general who fight for attention, preference, clique etc. so thats all I wanted to say...GUYS i know its hard to receive and digest all that emotional comparisons but one should always hold ground and remember what they truly are!!! I know my basic set of words won't make a huge difference but I implore all of you guys out there to let everyone around you know that life cannot be led on someone else's whims and guidelines and expectations...there are gonna be numerous times when you won't be there for your friends when he just wants to talk to you..the same case might be for you..doesn't mean that friends don't care..they probably don't know your sadness or aren't in a position at that very moment to realise you needs.
Friends DON'T have a sixth sense to tell when another friend is sad happy dramatic moody.......